Where to start? I’ve been battling back and forth between posting this or not and I know that I absolutely will benefit more from sharing this with my community than sitting back and dealing with this in silence.
If you’re new here, we keep things real. If I can’t be 100% myself, I tend to go dark on social media and absolutely seem “off”.
I have dealt with some of the most trying situations anyone can imagine. I don’t say that for pity, I’m a grown woman and can take care of myself trust me. I’m saying that so you understand where the state of my current mental health is coming from.
At the age of 6 I was sexually abused. I went from living with two parents who weren’t right for each other, to living with just my dad, and then to living with my dad and a mentally and physically abusive step mother. I battled an eating disorder from middle school to my mid twenties, lost my mother to suicide (more on that here), and had a near death experience that unveiled that my step-mother was in fact what 20/20 would call a black widow. Sound like a Lifetime movie anyone?
I’ve been through some Sh*t, to be blunt.
So, today I started therapy. I did my research… and I finally found someone who can help me manage my anxiety + depression and get to the root of what this is all stemming from. Today I was diagnosed with Severe PTSD. I cried so hard. I’ve felt drained all day, but I know I’m on the road to recovery… I know this is going to be an uphill battle. I know this is going to be tough. I’m ready.
I’ll be sharing tips and tricks, things I’m dealing with, and the rawness of what recovery and focus on mental health looks like for me. I know that with the support of my family, friends, and the amazing community I have here that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
I can’t thank you enough for being here and being part of my little corner of the internet. When I say that this blog saved my life I’m not exaggerating and I’m forever grateful.